You think the cat is suffocating? Think again. You might be the one who’s losing your breath.
That’s what you thought when you got the notification, shey? Well, yes. School was and is trying to kill me.
Lately, I’ve been having entire strings of existential crises.
I won’t go into details because most are way too dark. Fortunately for me – and since I’m so blessed – I’m still standing.
I mean, I’m already basically thin. Is it until I look like a stick?
In addition to all of this, Cameron Boyce just had to die.
Life is a pot of beans. _Brownie_vocal
The only useful thing I can say I’ve gotten from this school is the wonderful Christian fellowship and moments with God (and meeting a few wonderful people).
You see, back home, my church is basically a 45-minute drive from my house. That’s not very encouraging when there are midweek services and all. Hence, we mostly only go for Sunday service. Here, on the other hand, I can go to church every day…
Anyway, yes. I’m back. I think. The fact that I wasn’t even posting and the views kept coming in…
I’ve learnt that I’m just going to have to adapt, else, I won’t be able to do all the things I love. I can’t have that. I miss y’all. I miss writing. I miss expressing myself. That’s why I’m back.
Although, I’ll admit it was a bit of motivation. Especially when Osastheking resumed posting on her blog right after following mine.
I knew I couldn’t disappoint then. Hence, here I am.
I honestly can’t explain how much I missed this too and I’ll do everything in my power to be consistent. No more – or minimal- slacking.
Over the period of time I’ve been here – in Ibadan, I’ve been hearing. Actually, I’ve always been hearing and you probably have been too but we all barely ever listen. Recently, I learned to listen.
There’s this new song by Naira Marley that’s gaining more clout than it deserves. Before I go on, I believe it’s best if I told you that if you’re a marlian or whatever y’all call yourselves, you need to stay away. Stay away from here, from me, from my social media and everything else that’s connected to me.
The song, called Soapy, even came with a very imbecilic dance that seemed like a glorification of masturbation to me at first. Later, I found out that it was a lame attempt at awareness. Apparently, Marley was telling guys to not do bad things, else, they’d end up in jail where they’d be sex deprived and have only soap to wank.
I could stay on here all day and rant about how shitty the song, the dance and everyone indulging in it is. To be honest, I’m actually tempted to.
Rather than rant, I, instead, would talk about something of benefit.
I brought up the song to help me explain the difference between hearing and listening. When soapy is blaring loud from speakers and you’re just passing by, you’re hearing that song. Now, I don’t know about you, but I’m definitely not listening. If I could, I would go unplug those speakers but, unfortunately, most times I can’t. When you aren’t making a conscious effort to take in whatever you can hear, then you’re not listening. Like I’d rather actually LISTEN to Jacob Banks or Jon Bellion or Bastille. But no. Humans choose to be weird.
Although the word listen is usually associated with hearing through the ears, listening is a lot more than that.
The world talks to you. Your body talks to you. The Lord talks to you. Most times, they’re subtle. You can feel it. The discomfort that comes with doing something, making a decision and even relating with people. That yearning to be somewhere, to meet someone, to do something. All of that is your body talking to you. Very few people are ever really paying attention.
To live a life that’s fulfilling, you’re going to have to learn to listen to your body. The world is so perfectly tuned that your subconscious is constantly working for your good. It’s like a magnet that is always attracted to whatever will bring you the best. Coupled with the Holy Spirit – if you’re a Christian – your inner man will always try to communicate with you so that you’re always walking and/or working in accordance to the will of God.
TIMES YOU SHOULD LISTEN
When the world seems to be at it’s loudest:
I’ve been so distracted. A few times, I even get distracted from my distractions. Hell of a cycle if you ask me.
Times like these are when the world is at its loudest. It’s so easy to get caught up in all the hustle and bustle that we barely ever feel in control and/or conscious of other minor but equally important things. Times like these are when your body is leading you but the distractions of your distractions distract you from your own self. Times like these are times you have to calm down every once in a while. Times like these are times you need to take a break from external control and expectations and connect to the internal. TIMES LIKE THESE ARE TIMES YOU HAVE TO LISTEN.
Moments of Unsurety:
When you feel you need to even though you don’t want to:
Like I said before, everything is talking to you every time. You need to learn to filter and listen. Hence, you need to listen every single time.
In conclusion, I’ll say that listening might not come off as so easy at the start but eventually, you’ll learn to filter and tune in to the most important of things you need to hear.
P.S. I’ve decided I’ll be updating you once in 2 weeks now to give me ample time for everything than needs me and my attention.